Share, rant, show and tell. . .

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Finally, after uploading the photos and putting this post on hold for so so so long, I've decided to take a couple of minutes and update my blog a lil' bit! First thing's first, like I said in the last post, semester has come to an end, so is my teaching career for this semester. Well, "career" might be a little overdoing it, it's merely a part time job where I conduct tutorial classes for the first year Physics students for Prof Claus.

I first took up this job because, well, for those who know me, you know that the following statement is very true: I like talking and I'm very naggy. But yea, above that all, I like teaching! And considering the class size at the end of the semester, I'd say I didn't do too badly after all! Of course, there are lots for me to learn still but if there's one thing that I'm proud of myself in my teaching, is I managed to finish discussing all the questions PROPERLY in every tutorial! I don't know what the students think, but I'll find out after the exams. Gotta be excited on the feedbacks yo, since I'll be teaching again next semester, I wouldn't wanna repeat the same mistakes I did this semester, no?

On and all, one of the most enjoyable thing that happened to me this semester, especially with your absence, is teaching. Heck, there are a lot of times when I'm more looking forward(is this grammatically right?) to teaching as compared to attending classes. But of course, I have to be frank, as the exams draw near, I did take away some of my attention from teaching to my own studies. I guess that's quite natural considering I'm also a student, but the thing is, it might not have been so fair to the students in my class? I mean, as a student, I wouldn't want my tutor/lecturer to spend LESS attention in us when the exams are around the corner right? I guess, that's one thing I should apologize to my students for. Nonetheless, I'll try my best to allocate some time for consultation before you guys' paper alright? (Maybe I'll try blogging less? Nah, just kidding)

So anyway, that's more or less what I have to share about me being a teaching assistant this semester. On a totally unrelated matter(thought of making it into a separate post, but I guess 2 posts at the same time will be a wee bit inconvenient to read),

I HATE NTU!!

Yes!! MOST OF THE TIME(not even sometimes), the decisions made by NTU really baffles me! One of the recent ones is compromising the welfare of the students and acting all heroic, making NTU the Youth Olympic Village. And of course, who could forget all the money spent into making NTU campus look like a prison, by putting up REDUNDANT fences along the whole campus. However, this time round, I'm not talking about these. I'm talking about closing the Hall 3 function hall JUST BECAUSE IT'S EXAM PERIOD!! I mean, c'mon!! It's not even being used as an exam hall why the hell would you close it? Oh by the way, just in case I lost whoever who's reading this, we play badminton every weekend there. Hence, when I woke up this morning and Sean texted me saying that they closed the courts in the function hall because it's exam period, I couldn't be more unhappy!

What is the deal with closing the function hall and exam period man? It's not being used at all, so for fuck's sake, let students like us use it to exercise! I guess this is really one of the reason why NTU can never reach the top, the narrow minded mindset. Just because the exams are around the corner, you're prohibiting any form of relaxation/entertainment for the students? I thought it is because it's the exam period that we need to blow off some steam once in a while, and sports would seem like a perfectly healthy way to do it. Whatever it is, the administration of NTU has one of the most interesting decision making minds ever.

Well, of course, not everything is THAT bad on a Saturday morning without badminton. For instance, I got this post up, that should be something good I guess? Aside from that, after millions and millions of words of ranting, here are some interesting photos to share:
Ta-da!! Panorama shots! No, I did not go traveling recently. This sad soul who's always trapped in the lab was so lonely and jealous of all the photos his girlfriend posted, decided to dig up some of his old traveling photos and work on them.
It was my first time doing panorama, it was in San Francisco by the way. the view there was so breathtaking, and when Garen took out his camera and start "panorama-ing", I figured I'd try it out myself.
Of course, there's so much for me to learn about panorama shots. For starters, Song Wee just thought me how to get a more uniform exposure without relying on post processing too much. I'm so totally grateful Wee. Thanks for the hints! And of course, I need to learn how to create better compositions of panorama shots.
Not excellent, but so far, this is my favourite shot. I did not really follow the rule of third in this case, because I figured, whichever way I adjust, both the sky and the sea wasn't interesting enough to deserve 2/3 of the photo. Of course, I might be wrong, and I kinda regret that I did not do a few shots abiding the rule of third. After all, it doesn't cost anything to process a digital photo. Oh well, too late for that now, I won't have the chance to go back to San Francisco anymore, not in the short run.

Wow, that's really one heck of a post!! I did not know I wrote so long, until I scrolled up and skim through everything after the caption of the last photo. Well, I guess after such a heavy session of sharing, ranting and "showing-off", it's time to get back to my Statistical Mechanics II. Hopefully I will able to finish up to the point where Prof Chia left off by the end of this weekend, so that I can start on my Surfaces and Interfaces revision. Adios amigos!!!

Lizard-man, climbing the wall of age. . .

Sunday, November 21, 2010

One quick post with very little words before my exams! To my dismay, I have less than 3 weeks before my 2-day final exams commence!! If I have to say, this is the most unprepared semester that I've experienced so far, ever since the semester kicked start in the wrong way, shits keep piling and piling up, and it's high time I suffer the consequences. Sigh. Regardless, let's take a look at Sean's birthday before whatever that's gonna befall upon me!!

So yup, we had an actually-not-so-simple celebration for him after all. We had potluck!! Everyone has to bring something, and we share everything. Really takes the workload off the organisers and distributes it fairly among everyone.
There were lots and lots of food that everyone brought, but I did not have the time to process every one of them and hence, I just picked the most important one to upload.
The Birthday Boy was very excited most of the time of the night, and he has been having sleepless nights and dreams about how many of us will attend this potluck that his girlfriend planned for him.
Turns out that, this many attended! By the way, photo not by me, it was by An Yi's G12 because by that time my camera died on me. So yea.
So once again, due to the lack of time, I'm gonna end this post with another Happy Birthday Sean, I hope you enjoyed the night we put together for you!

Semester is ending, so is my teaching this sem!! Hence, if I manage to find time, I shall talk about my personal teaching experience this semester! It was my first time after all! XD



Meatball: 23 years and still rolling like a champ. . .

Sunday, November 14, 2010

It's been such a long long while, but this post is gonna be about something happy!! And what's more, this is a post of me going out of campus to have some fun and chill out with my friends after God-knows-how-long it has been. Okay, enough beating around the bush. Before I start, a little update on myself. I bought Song Wee's second hand Canon Powershot s90 because since she broke her camera and Song Wee's willing to sell me his old one for a very low price, I figured I'll get it for her before she comes back =). As random as it seems, its not. The following photos are all snapped by the new Canon Powershot s90(new as in, newly purchased). Having said that, let's talk while going through the photos of the night shall we?

Sean picked the perfect place for celebration!! After such a long time locking myself up in the lab, I was craving for sushi like a vampire craving for blood! Hence, when he told us that we would be celebrating Yok Yin's birthday in Ichiban Sushi, I couldn't be happier!!
While not as effective as my 500D in terms of portrait shot, when it comes to close up food portrait, the s90 is quite powerful itself! On another note, having eating at Ichiban Sushi which is located just beside Tori Q, reminds me of all the times we have Yakitori there. =(
Sashimi!! Missing these like crazy!
Needless to say, I quenched my thirst for both Japanese food and photography that night, by eating and snapping a lot! Ordered something called the "Don Don Gozen", that comes with 2 rice sets and lots of side dishes =X
Overall the food shots were quite satisfying, considering the amount of time I've been on hiatus in photography. And gosh, just posting all this up now is making my stomach grumbles again. It's like a freaking thunderstorm there!
Well, enough of food shots, let's take a look of the birthday girl and her bunch of friends who celebrated fr her. Obviously you can easily identify Yok Yin the birthday girl right? Despite all of us being old birds(final year students) except for Wei Ting, we made her walk around JP holding a "bouquet" of balloon flowers(courtesy of Wei Ting)!! It was such a hilarious sight seeing everyone's eyes on her as she strolled down the shopping mall. Of course, this is to keep you young at heart, our beloved friend!!
Back in campus, we feast ourselves to the Oreo cheesecake that the birthday girl and her boyfriend baked for her. Yes, the birthday girl has to bake her own cake, that explains the murderous intent in the photo. Sean, let this serve as a warning to you, and next year, you better be able to bake her a nine thousand layered cheesecake with different flavors in each layer k?
Gonna end this post with a shot with Sean and Yok Yin. From Year 1 till now, these guys have been my best buddies in NTU, especially Yok Yin whom I met first from our orientation camp group. Happy Birthday again! Hope that you enjoyed yourself thoroughly last night! Hope that we can celebrate many many more birthdays with you too!!

Thoughts for food. . .

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Indeed, it was a day filled with thoughts, thoughts and more thoughts. So much thinking going on, so little solved.

Saw something that maybe I shouldn't have tried to feast my eyes on, ending up feeding poison to my mind. Thus begin the torment and worries. Of course, a lot of people would say, "Shouldn't it be better that you saw it? You can attempt to solve it right?" But I guess, this is something that I can't even go about attempting to solve? I know quite well, if I tried to bulldoze my way through for a solution, I'll end up with more on my hands to deal with. So I guess, suck up the pain and keep your mouth shut Whei Yeap, blame yourself that you have such vigilant eyes you moron.

I guess, this puts me back in the dark? I don't know. . .

Like I said, trying to solve it will never do, therefore, talking about the details will do just as bad.

Thus that brings us to another of my dilemma. I guess this is more like a "pre graduation syndrome"? When you're gonna graduate soon, and the transition between a student to whatever that lies ahead, is like when you're about to take a leap across an endlessly deep valley. After all the way you've came through, it's either you make it to the other side, or you fall and quite possibly never come back up to the same level anymore.

Read some of my friends' facebook posts and it got me thinking a lot, a whole lot about what's in store for me after this. Well of course, the plan is, get a PhD and hopefully become an academia. At least, that's the dream. Very nice Whei Yeap, very nice, ONLY if everything's going on the way you dream of up to this point.

Let's face it, I'm definitely not anywhere near the top of my class. There are so many people above me. That's one concern. Secondly, I'm doing theory. Note, I'm saying that I'm doing theory solely because I'm NOT doing experimental physics and I've taken the course path of Physics(more known as, Pure Physics). It's not because I solve equations on a piece of paper, derive some weird looking equations or try to solve something that's. . . . very hardcore. You get what I mean? My research has always been more computational, building models and investigating something, something quite, "engineering". But anyway, let's just stick with "I'm doing theoretical Physics" for simplicity. Everyone knows that Singapore has little to no room for theorist. All this country cares for is industrial growth and money. Whatever that doesn't really generate those coloured bills with Yusof's picture on it, gets minimal attention.

Most of the time, the place that offers more attention in theoretical research is of course, US. They are willing to spend money in researches like String Theory, Quantum Computing and whatnot. That's where concern number 1 comes in. I'm nowhere near the top of the class and getting into US is. . . . for the lack of a better word, difficult. So, once again, I'm facing the usual problem that I have been facing throughout my whole life. I'm always at the middle. I'm never at the top of anything, neither am I at the utter bottom that tells me I should just walk away from that "thing". I'm always in between, not good enough to excel, yet not bad enough to get thrown out and go somewhere else.

That is the worst possible position to be in.

Having said all that, I'm not giving up just yet. Of course, times are tough and there are times we're worried and concerned about things, but even after all the times spent ranting, if we never get back to making things work, that's when we should really worry. So yea, ranting's over, and it's time to do whatever you can to get yourself out of this dilemma, SWY.

Plagiarism. . .

Friday, November 5, 2010

Introducing, the photographer who's holding on to my camera now~

Yup!! She is!! XD. Of course, she needs no introduction. And since now she's in Sweden studying and a series of unfortunate events happened to her camera, I sent her my baby to ensure she can immortalize the beautiful moments there! So in short, my baby is holding on to my baby! Anyway, she took lots and lots and lots of shots, and I'm not just trying to flatter her, but her photos are getting better and better with time!! Therefore, since recently, my blog has been running out of photos to show and tell, I figured I "steal" some of her photos and use them to entertain that negative 10 million readers I have XD.

Anyway, lo and behold~
Prague, Czech Republic. Oh by the way, all the photos in this post(or even some of the upcoming posts) are snapped by the lovely photographer up there. All I did was, minimal post processing and a little stamp for her.
And well, since they're not really my photos, so I don't really have any big description for the photos. However, she does have my blog password, so I guess if she's interested in telling people about the amazing places she's visited, she might just log in and edit my posts.
Well, I hope you guys(whoever who's reading) won't lose interest in my blog just because I am using her photos k!! After all, I'm here to share shots that me and my gf took, so I guess as long as the shots are nice(in my humble opinion), I'll post them!

Anyway, that's all I have for now!! Not much of an interesting post(in terms of the words), but hey, at least they're some pretty pictures by a pretty photographer right? And a shoutout to you MC, if you're kind enough and have some time to spare, do tell us more about the photos there k?

And now, back to the FYP with 432543985729432 bugs!! This is the last day I'm gonna spend on my FYP, since I'm quite behind my courses and there's only about 1 month left to work things out for exams, I figured I should leave my FYP until after exams and use the time I spend on my FYP(which is a buttload), to buck up on PAP451: Statistical Mechanics II and PAP443: Surfaces and Interfaces. Till next post!

The dark. . .

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Vegas, the city that never sleeps, just like me. I guess I'm desperate for some photos in my blog? And my waking moments every night, reminds me of Las Vegas. I can't sleep anymore, not at night, not in the dark. When the lights go off, feelings of fear and tormenting thoughts come to me. That is why, I lost my ability to sleep and recuperate daily. The only rests I get, are from the few minutes every now and then when my head rests on the lab table in the afternoon.

Somebody told me I have a dark inner side. But how ironic is it, that I have a dark inner side, but I'm afraid of the dark?

I am afraid. . .

I want to search for the light with you again. . .

I realized yesterday, that it was already November. I guess as the usual saying goes, "Time and tide waits for no man", and true enough, this semester, I have been abandoned by time. It's already November, approximately 5 more weeks to my final exams. And where am I in the course again? Nowhere, at best, I'm just right at the beginning of the textbook.

The little things you say, the little things you do. . . has a butterfly effect. . . yet another night filled with rants and agony. . .

Inception. . .

Monday, November 1, 2010

Watched Inception a second time, of course, this time on my laptop. And I guess watching the same movie with a different mood, gives a different perception. The first time I watched it, it was just a movie with an interesting concept. Of course, it was an awesome movie in my humble opinion. I really love it. The second time I watched it, still love it, but my mind was hovering over different matters this time round. Typical enough, I think of you a lot.

Dreams and reality, recently I've been experiencing both a lot. How I wish I never wake up from those sweet dreams I have of you, and how I wish I could escape reality right now, and hide in my dreams where you were there with me, until you come back. Of dreams and reality, who are we to tell them apart? Whichever that we enjoy more, should be the more real one shouldn't it? That's how we humans have been living our lives, no? Our whole lives, we have been trying to satisfy and content ourselves, bring happiness to ourselves, and if our dreams are more pleasant, why can't it be our reality?

Of course, everything I said would sound very hypothetical to most people, or maybe, it will just be perceived as another "emo post". Bottom line is, I'm missing you more than I can bear. It's tearing me up every second of my life. It's not easy on me and you know it. You told me yourself you know this is difficult. But I guess, when you're enjoying yourself so much, other people's pains and sufferings just seem so annoying right? Of course, I can't expect people to treat me the way I treat them. I cannot expect people to be like me, sacrifice myself for the person I love.

It's unbearable, really. This feeling that I'm experiencing. How much I miss you, how much I wish to hear from you, how much I wish to be treated more warmly. Just like Cob, I can't keep you out of my mind. . . I'm at the stage where life is really so so so painful and tormenting that, death seems to be such a happy state to be in. If falling off a building in a dream brings you to reality, will falling from a building in reality brings you to a dream? An eternal dream. . . . that would be my new reality no? BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop